The
darkness penetrated everywhere. The whole world was asleep, waiting. Preparing.
Then a voice rang out in the silence, hoarse, exhausted: “Father, forgive them,
for they know not what they do.” Then: “Father, into your hands I commend my
spirit.” The world was shaken by the dying breath of God.
It
was still dark. Through the thick, cloudy air drifted. A
friend had recently introduced her to the world-wide treasure hunt that was
geocaching, so Estella was taking advantage of a lazy Saturday morning, as well
as an abnormally light load of ninth grade homework, to hunt for caches. She
wasn’t very good at using her handheld GPS or looking too closely at her surroundings
for strange details, but she enjoyed stumbling through the wilderness and
finding interesting places. Geocaching made her feel connected to other people,
as all too often Estella felt like an outcast. At school especially, she was
ridiculed for being the one student who read Jane Austen for fun. Being
Catholic didn’t help with her popularity either, so Estella was a social
outcast. After the other high schoolers had made fun of her Faith on the first
day of school, Estella had made sure that she never mentioned the Mass, Christ,
or anything possibly Catholicism-related. At least she wasn’t called “that
Catholic girl” anymore. Everyone seemed to have forgotten. No one even
remembered her name. They just called her “Ella,” which was fine because Estella
wasn’t even sure what her full name meant. Estella?
Maybe a star, like “stella” in Latin? Or... Estella huffed.
The geocache she was searching for appeared to be in the woods somewhere, off
the dry-leaf-encrusted sidewalk she was walking along. Her little town was
surrounded by a large forest, and it seemed to be forgotten by the rest of
Alaska. Just like herself. Well, if I have
to bushwhack, I have to bushwhack. She dove into the woods
that she hadn’t explored since her childhood.
After what seemed like an hour of
trudging through the woods alone, Estella’s handheld GPS led her into a small
clearing. As she was>heading
into the clearing, she paused to smell the sweet, crisp fall air and imagined
that she was in a fairy tale or an adventure story that someone was reading.
Something exciting had to happen now. That was always what happened in those
books--the fearless heroine would be exploring when she would discover a clue
that would change her life around. I could use that she thought, although I’m more like an
oblivious heroine. I’ll take one step...and one more step....and then....Estella
stopped abruptly and stared incredulously. She had made it into a clearing. But
it wasn’t what she had been expecting.
It was not what Hên had been
expecting. He had no idea how he arrived
on this legendary planet called Earth or how he was saved from death; the only
memory was that of a dilapidated time machine. He just thanked the Creator that
he was alive. He thought it terrible that his entire race could have been wiped
out by three words; at least that was what the time machine had told him while
hurtling through the time-space continuum towards Earth. Fortunately, the
machine failed to mention what the words were, if they were tragic enough to
trigger the bane of the Bain. The Bain, his family of creatures, were unique
among all other races because when they would hear the most impossible,
appalling thing in the universe a toxin would be released in their systems,
killing them within minutes. This foreseen occurrence had happened right after
Bain was sent away. His parents had decided to send him away as soon as they
discovered the transmission from the hired spies. Now they were dead.
There was a large pit. Smoke trickled
up into the sky from something that seemed to still be burning inside, and as
Estella gaped she noticed charred bits of metal that appeared to be flung from
the wreckage. She warily walked closer and peeked into the massive hole in the
ground. From the darkness, peeking out of her in turn from the hole, was a child. “Er...hello,” she said. “What
are you doing in there?”
"I escaped from my planet and
crash-landed,” Hên said, as though it were obvious. Estella began to pull him
out of the pit and he now stood beside it. Hên decided to use the ritual
greeting question of his people. “What is your life for?”
Estella was floored. She was afraid
that her mouth was opened embarrassingly wide, but she decided to focus on her
reply. She tried to dig up from the cobwebbed corners of her mind an old Sunday
school answer to that question, but she decided that would be too trite.
“Ummm...I’m not sure.”
Hên peered at her incredulously. “Not
sure? I thought the Creator had revealed himself to all worlds. There was
something I was going to ask you, but I can’t remember now.”
Estella, still surprised by the
child-like frankness and strange ideas of this visitor, decided to disregard
both statements for the moment and take a more ordinary tack. “My name is
Estella. What’s yours?”
Hên smiled absently. “Hên.
Estella...that’s a very good name. It’s only given to nobility in my home...or
it was.”
Estella screwed up her eyebrows (a
peculiar expression for which she was endlessly teased at school, but she was
to excited and bewildered to care). “What does it mean, if it’s so special?”
Hên didn’t appear to hear this, as he
was in deep thought. “Oh, I remembered what I was going to ask you! Back on our
planet our prophets said that Creator sent his Son to Earth. What happened? It
must have been wonderful.”
Estella had never thought about the
Incarnation in that way before. She had a strange feeling that her mind was
slowly awakening from an oblivious sleep. “Yes, I suppose it was,” she said
thoughtfully.
"Yes, but what
happened? I’ve always wanted to know.”
"We...we killed him,” said Estella,
wondering if she should tell this stranger why He died, and how he rose again
out of the ashes of death and ascended into Heaven, and how he will meet any
one of us and love us and protect us, if only we will open our hearts just a
crack, just a little crack; things she hadn’t told anyone before; but she
wasn’t brave enough. Her mind hadn’t yet emerged from its prolonged stupor.
It was too late. Hên stumbled backward
and fell to the ground in the grass still wet from dew.
Estella gasped and ran to him,
supporting him and running through emergency procedures in her head. “What’s
wrong? Should I call an ambulance? The fire department? What happened?”
It’s too late,” Hên replied with
effort. “I’m dying and it can’t be stopped. This...this is what happened to my
people and now it’s happening to me.” His voice was growing quieter. Estella
had to lean next to his lips to hear his final words. Then Hên fell asleep. He
never awoke again.
Dawn was coming. Estella walked down
the sidewalk on her way to her twelfth grade classes. She was engrossed in
reading The Odyssey (belated homework) when she stopped and looked into
the familiar tangled forest to her right. Memories of the child she had met
there and how he had changed her life flooded back to her. She remembered how
he had frightened her and inspired her all at once. As Estella turned from the
forest and moved on, she remembered his last words: “Estel. Hope.”
[The
words “Estel,” “Hên,” and “Bain” are from Sindarin, a fictional Elvish language
by J. R. R. Tolkien.]
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