People
always say
Happiness
will find you
But
I think sadness will find you too
It
sneaks up on you just as you thought you made it through
It
opens holes in what you thought used to be solid ground
The
type of holes you didn't realize were there
Until
you take a step into thin air
It
caresses your hair
And
then it's gone as if it were never there
It
fills you to the very top and can't seem to stop
Until
there is nothing left to take
But
to make its own hidden maggots
The
tunnels of your mind and silence the kind that remain for you to find
As
you struggle
And
feel as if you are caught in a web that will hold a grasp until the day you die
You
are stuck screaming on the inside but the
Sticky
cotton texture is drowning you
From
the inside out
They
tell you not to pout
But
you lost all of your other faces
You
lost count of all the times that made you smile to the point where your cheeks
hurt
You
lost count of all the times you laughed so hard
Your
stomach aches
All
of it is now nonexistent
You
are distant
You
feel the air swim through your lungs
That
are now locked up in bird cage of desperation
Once
again you are gone
But
this time it's from both reality and the world
As
heaven holds you it treats you like the golds from the Witwatersrand
basin
It
puts you in a new mindset that feels almost impossible
The
sadness that filled you floods out into the watercolor blue oceans
And
the motions of the exotic fish and the screeching commotion fled with the blue
birds
Into
symphonies that had once made you happy
So
you swam with the whales and the gales of the seas
That
pushed you further
Further
Back
to the shore where you can breathe again
But
you are happy.
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